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| Sunday, July 17th, 2011 | | 12:19 pm |
Whoops
I deleted the post I posted 10 hours ago. The deleting action was intentional I suppose, but it was the same mindless garbage I always bitch about- friends being enemies, that sort of thing. Details would be obsolete at this point. Have fun kiddos. Current Mood:  discontent | | Monday, March 26th, 2007 | | 1:49 pm |
It's Only Entertainment
 This pretty much defines the weekend!! Captives first show went pretty good!! There was technical problems, but that's only because Tama Drums can eat shit!! Another Metal piece on my Iron Cobra decided to snap off during our first song, so I used the left kick pedal with my right foot untill I finished the first song, hahahaha, no one noticed untill I pointed it out lolz... Anyway!! I was hopin I'd see more faces that I recognized in the crowd, but that's ok, it's obvious that these friends who showed up gave a shit about my new band, and that means the world to me. I stuck around for all the bands. Some of my band disappeared before I could even say goodbye to them, cool, Thanks Man!! Lolz I guess they had better shit to do then to stick around and support the bands. Whateverrrr!! AppleBeeje was awesome as always, well, at one point, Reckless put my full water by Pauls feet, and our bud Joe walked by and it spilt everywhere hahaha, I didn't notice my water was missing till someone said "who's water is this" Hahahaha, oh man, so funny!! Work wasn't a pain in the ass as usual this weekend, I managed to get 3 people to sign up for "red" cards in a matter of two days. Anyway, I had some visitors at work, then hung out with them plus Andrew after work, ate some M & M's, picked up some Rockstar Mango and Tangerine!! We drove around, listened to some Oi in Andrew's mother's car. Just chilled!! Then went to White Castle with Tim Klotz!! I was so tired last night, that I barely remember anything before I passed out. I wish I could have stayed over the Pool House with everyone and Bury the Masses after the show, but of course work on Weekends has to interfere with that shit, I gotta get out of there soon! -Steve Current Mood:  gloomy | | Thursday, March 15th, 2007 | | 10:36 pm |
www.myspace.com/captivesofnj | | Wednesday, March 7th, 2007 | | 12:15 am |
| | Wednesday, February 28th, 2007 | | 6:15 pm |
Better off undead
As of now, I am dead... (actually, sometimes it seems like I'm better off that way) Anyway, I went to the doctor yesterday, he said I had an ear infection. Cool... So I have meds... Right now I'm at school on my Hell Day...(when I should be resting) It fucking sucks ass, I had an exam this morning, that I know I did terrible on. I got my grade back from the one I took Monday, fuckin 50. I told that professor that I was litterely dead when I took it, and he was like "oh, you should have told me, when it comes to being sick I totally know, we could have worked something out".. I mean, of course I said nothing on Monday, cuz all professors are SCUM by default, this guy isn't I guess...but anyway... I think I'm alone for my group projects in my accounting class, the girl that I was teamed up with, wants to have nothing to do with me I guess?? I mean, she totally understands what's going on in the class, and I don't, so I guess she's mad at me for that?? or maybe I smell bad?? I have no idea!? She never says hi to me in class, nor does she talk to me, or even look at me. Like what the fuck did I do bitch?? Jesus Christ, does every girl fucking want to have nothing to do with me?!?! What the fuck am I, dog shit?? I guess it makes sense, cuz people step all over me... I'm sick being the good guy that gets walked all over. I'm seriously not gonna do anything good for anyone, even my "friends". I go out of my way for them, and I'm just another face in the crowd. I get nothing out of life, Fucking Nothing... I don't even know what I'm doing with my life right now, cuz I sure as hell don't want to be a business major anymore... I don't wanna be a rich asshole who lives to work, fuck that shit, Life is about happyness right??? Right?? AND What the fuck is the point of having a fucking cell phone, when you don't pick it up??? Seriously, I'm putting no more effort into trying to socialize with anyone anymore. I seriously just want to take nyquil tonight, and not wake up, but that would be an easy way out... William Patterson University and all the Fake Scum who go there can suck my balls. Current Mood: gloomy | | Sunday, February 25th, 2007 | | 6:12 pm |
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Things could be a lot better right now... On a good note though, my Saab finally has brakes!! My brother actually helped me out big time, besides fixing my breaks, he gave me an oil change, and flushed out my system, he said there was washer fluid in the coolant tank??? I seriously don't know how that happened, but he helped me out. I sort of have been feeling sick since like Wednesday. People say, that the weather doesn't make you sick, but as I recall, it was pretty warm either Tuesday or Wednesday, I can't recall...but I remember feeling like ass after that. I was late to school Friday... As soon as I hit route 80, there was rediculous trafic. Aparently there was a truck that flipped on the exit right after mine....my luck right?? Anyway, I took the next exit off to make a little detour...I hit up 46 to birkshire valley road (I'm stuck behind a slow truck) to the mall area...I get back on 80, traffic is gone, untill I get near the denville area, another fucking accident... so...I go back on 46...And I just take 46 to 23 to school... I get to school 20 minutes late... There was times when I wanted to turn around, but I didn't let the asshole drivers ruin my mission...which was to get to school I guess haha. It's just really silly that it took about two hours to get to school... Anyway, after that, I pick up my horrible paycheck from Target, go to the mall. I go to the apple store to check if they have feet for my 17in powerbook. They didn't sell that shit...how could they not? It made no sense to me, they were no help either with my situation... I check to see if some pals of mine were working, they weren't. So I went home to nap. Later that night, I met up with Paul, Kevin, Heather, Tanya and company for Tanya's birthday...We went to olive garden. I got Eggplant parm, cuz my mom made me feel guilty that it was friday and I couldn't eat meat, Paul made fun of me for it, but whatever, it's not a big deal. After that we went to Heather's. I used my magic hair to stick every loose ballon to the ceiling in a circular fashion. Not one fell all night!! We all danced to some killer tunes from Heather's Jukebox...well, me and Paul did, everyone else was a square. We had cake, then watched Dazed and Confused. Then I went home. Saturday comes rolling by...I end up working about 4 hours, then I went home sick... It might have been my allergies, I really have no idea...but the one manager asked me if I was feeling alright, usually I have to let them know that I'm feeling like shit. Anyway. When I got home, I passed out for 4 hours, I stay in bed, still feel like shit...Then I'm off to band practice. It was a good jam, we definately have 4 songs down, we'll be playing shows in no time. Anyway, after practice, I stopped off at A & P and picked up some spicey shit to clear me up. I get home, feel worse than before. Try to go to bed early, I passed out at a good hour. But I woke up at like 4 or 5am, and dont fall asleep untill like maybe like 730. 10am rolls around, my alarm goes off for work. I call up work, I call out... Then I try passing out, at this point, rargh, still feel like shit... Anyway, I've been in bed all day... and I had some energy to come on here. My mom told me since I was feeling sick that I shouldn't have went to band practice...ok, why should I not do the one thing in my life that I enjoy?? I know I'm sick, but that's never stopped me in the past... I have a test in my managerial accounting class tomorrow, I highly doubt that I'm going to good in it, because I did one out of the 4 homework assignments, and right now studying is like out of the question... I get fucking sick at the worst possible time, I think it's cuz God hates me...or I should say, What God right??? Whatever, being sick puts some things in perspective though... not every thing, but some things... I mean, I always have that hand sanitizer on me, so I don't know what the fuck happened... Anyway, I need to rest, fuck!! Current Mood:  sick | | Tuesday, February 20th, 2007 | | 2:03 am |
I'm crazy and I'm hurt
School's been a pain in the ass lately. I seriously had a nervous breakdown about two weeks ago. I dropped my 9:30 Racism/Sexism class. I wake up around 9:30, I head over to school, it takes about an hour drive there... and I'm litteraly driving around for 10 minutes looking for a spot. The main lot was full, I drive an hour to find no parking available. So I drive around the campus. I find another lot. I park...I start walking in the 10 degree weather I'm like no where near my building. My class starts in like 2 minutes, so I said "fuck this shit", and I turned around and walked back to my Mom's Jeep. I didn't eat anything, so I figured I'd help destroy my liver by going to Burger King. Blah Blah Blah, Hours pass. I have homework due in my Managerial Accounting class, but I don't attempt any of it cuz I'm pissed off as fuck... Keep in mind I had no one to talk to, because it's highly impossible to meet anyone at school when you're a commuter. I go to my one class, I go to my other one at 7, I get out around 930... The next day, I get a letter from William Patterson telling me I'm on "probation", because I got a "d" last semester in a class that I worked my ass in...They said if I don't do "better" this semester, they'll drop me from the business program... I ended up walking up to Rawest Venue near sunset alone, to cool off, litteraly... It's like, "Geee, Thanks a lot for telling me this nearly a month into my 2nd semester assholes"... It's like, this school is taking away all of my motivation, for like doing anything in my life right now. I hope they drop my ass so I don't have to go there anymore. Right now, I'm trying to figure out my homework, but it's like not clear at all, and it's not like I could call up anyone and ask for help, maybe I just need to learn to learn shit on my own. When things aren't crystal clear though, I don't know. It feels like I'm doing something wrong... Maybe I'm not cut out for this school. I probably should have applied other places that care about their students, actually, I don't think a place exists. I'm obviously misserable going to this school, CCM was 15-20 mins away, I had Todd Collins, Joe Belloti to talk to, and they actually gave a shit. I don't even have a god damn advisor yet... So it's like, do I start applying other places to be safe??? Or do I play with fire and wait till they drop my ass to get a shitty full time job for eternity?? It's like, I try real hard, I do my best, and it's not good enough. I need a beeje. Current Mood:  crazy | | Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007 | | 7:25 pm |
"Take Your Life Back and Start Again!!"
That's how we began it and ended it... I didn't want to end it, so I just kept playing it. It's sad to think that this chapter of my life is over. I met so many great people cuz of this band. Many of them are close friends of mine. To think where would I be right now if I didn't have this band?? I definately would have made different (more drastic) life decisions I bet. All good things come to an end though. The question is, what do I do with my life now?? Hopefully make a HUGE difference/impact some other way with the band that has no name yet. It's always good to be optimistic, with me though, that's like saying the half empty glass isn't that empty. Whatever. Back to Square One I guess, whatever the hell that means. Current Mood:  confused | | Monday, May 8th, 2006 | | 6:00 pm |
| | Tuesday, April 25th, 2006 | | 2:38 pm |
Fuck CCM, Fuck William Patterson Don't go to school, get a shitty job for the rest of your life. | | Friday, April 7th, 2006 | | 1:38 pm |
So last night...
I dreamed that CCM got flooded, then somehow I ended up at an Aquabats show at Obsessions that no one knew about because no one promoted it. Anywho, after they played, I gathered up each of the 5 aquabats and asked them to sign my dvd booklet thing...I got through all 5, and I was like...well where do I find the 6th Aquabat for his signature...and the Bat Comander was like..."oh, John Stamos? he's in the other room!" And he was... Current Mood:  dorky | | Friday, March 31st, 2006 | | 3:16 pm |
What will it take to cleave this earth?
Things are good. I've been drumming like mad lately, totally trying to build up my endurance(spelling). The weather has been nice as hell, warm too...Let's just hope Mr. Allergies doesn't come knocking on my door any time soon, because I don't need that! I've been talking to/seeing this girl for the past two weeks. Her name is Bonnie. I asked her out on my brother's Birthday on Tuesday, she said yes. She's totally awesome. And what is awesome, is that I totally followed everyone's advice (who gave me advice), just wanna say thanks again! I definitely had to find myself, and be happy on my own, and be totally picky and not just find a random girl to meet up with. Things just happened, and that's totally rad! Shite, I gotta go to work now... I'm totally working alone tonight at Obsessions doing an XSDB show, it's gonna suck, I'm just gonna wing it, because it's definitely a two man job, whatever, I don't care! <3BR So without my friends, I don't know where I would be right now, thanks to all!!! you know who you are! I love you all! seriously! Current Mood:  calm | | Sunday, March 26th, 2006 | | 6:27 pm |
I'm not to good at giving morals
Thanks to anyone who came out last night to the Michale Graves show to support Fake Your Death. It was a lot of fun, I sweat my balls off, not to mention all the smoke gave me a killer headache, other than that...All the bands who played were awesome, No Say did Operation Ivy, that was totally awesome. A lot of people talk shit about Michale Graves, but he has a great voice, not to mention killer stage presence. CCM is trying to totally screw me over for like the millionth and tenth time... They sent me a letter saying how I have to still take 4 classes to graduate. But these classes were totally eliminated from my Major's checklist, and I totally went over with my checklist stuff with my Advisor last semester, I'm not worried at all, just agravated that CCM is run by a bunch of assholes who don't keep up with shit. Any who. Hope to see more of my "friends" at my next show!!! April 15th!! <3 Steve the sleeve Current Mood:  okay | | Friday, March 24th, 2006 | | 10:43 pm |
| | Wednesday, March 15th, 2006 | | 3:22 pm |
BE STIFF!!
Yeah. So I'm debating with myself... Should I live in a plastic bubble? Because the world around me is making me sick. Literaly cough cough sick, well, I guess the other way too...but anywho... Another thing, what the fuck is with this weather? It keeps changing drasticly every other day!! I'd like for someone to say to my face that Global Warming isn't real, because let's face it, it is, and who's doing anything about? No one! I mean, a Superhero like myself can only do so much!! Besides that, I'd like to thank anyone who commented on my Tux Pics. I don't know what the next couple of days have in store for me. Let's just hope I don't feel like ass by the weekend, this shit is pissing me the fuck off. Check out this sweet website- www.pandora.com An awesomely sweet girl sent me to it, if you love music, you'd get a kick out of this website! Mark your callenders kiddies- 
<3 Stevie B Current Mood:  aggravated | | Sunday, March 12th, 2006 | | 7:27 pm |
Enjoy.
 Current Mood:  accomplished | | Thursday, March 9th, 2006 | | 3:39 pm |
You better watch out
The big event is tomorrow, I'm really excited. A little nervous. We had to sell tickets, I think we sold like 99% of them. It's gonna be a killer show. I just hope I see a lot of happy faces in the crowd, that's all I wanna do, is to have the crowd enjoy our music and get something out of it. It should be a fun time by all. Ok, that's all for now.  | | Tuesday, March 7th, 2006 | | 9:54 pm |
Rorgh
Bad Religion Live at the Palladium is totally awesome, it's a lot better than I thought. I first went to Best Buy, it wasn't there, they never have anything the day it comes out. Borders of course had it, borders rules. After I got it, I made some phone calls, but no one picked up, or the one person that did pick up had no interest in watching it. So I went home and watched it alone. It was like 3 hrs long? The way it was set up was awesome. Anywho... My health seems to be better. I really don't want to be home right now. I want to be out doing shit. I don't have too much money right now, but that's ok. I'm debating weather or not to work tomorrow, because if I do, the evil may return and make me feel like death for the big event Friday. I don't think I will though, I really can't risk it. I guess that's all for now. Fuck MYspace Current Mood: bored | | Wednesday, March 1st, 2006 | | 9:46 pm |
| | Monday, February 27th, 2006 | | 11:31 pm |
I'm too sexy
As soon as I felt somewhat happy with myself, my Health all of the sudden goes down the shitter. Since Thursday morning, I've felt like Death was mocking me. Anyway, I brought my SAAB to get fixed finally, cost me $233. Despite how I was feeling, I met up with some kiddies I haven't seen in a while at the Budd Lake Diner, it was nice to meet up with them, we played a few games of MASH, then we departed. Friday morning came. I called up Joe, at like 12, asked him if there was any way someone could fill in for me that night at Obsessions. So I passed out, 2 hrs later he calls back saying he couldn't. At that point, I couldn't stand up without getting dizzy. So I ate something, took vitamins, showered, then sat up in a chair for a while. Then I made it over to the Evil Club. Saturday came, and health was still dwindling. So I packed up the Saab, and headed up to the Pool House. Both Jeff and Mike told me to get there at 11. Of course when I got there, no one was there, then they were telling me 12. Me and Paul jammed out anyway. Mike got there at like 1?? We jammed out for a couple of hrs. Pat and Brian had work or something. After that, I rested up a bit. Then this dude somehow got my number as was begging me to bring a mic to obsessions so they could do anouncements for their dance club party night or some shit. I was thinking "you don't have your own fucking mike?" I'm telling you, that place is sooo fucked up and unorganized. I'd rather not work there any more. Sunday- I was supposed to work doing an XDB show, but I fucking just slept, I got worse that day, I had the chills, I couldn't fucking get up, I was fucking better off dead at that point. I ended up watching VH1's Celebrity Fit Club shit all day. I took a dose of fake nyquil that night. Monday- Woke up at 4pm laughing, because it was 4pm. Chills were gone, energy came back a little, still dead though. Ate some food, showered, watched 24. Then had the balls to turn on my computer. I really didn't want to. So... I think when my Health is better, I'll be better, with everything. <3 It's the Generator Current Mood: sick |
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